A number of years ago, if you had asked me if one could be a member of the LDS Church and serve Christ, I would have laughed at the ridiculousness of such a question.
I do not laugh now. The question has racked my soul with torment the past few nights.
I should add the disclaimer here that I am a "card carrying" member of the LDS church in good standing. I have a calling teaching Gospel Doctrine and I always attend my Sunday meetings.
I have absolutely no desire to leave or be cast out of the Church, my only design in starting this blog was to seek for experience: the kind of experience, light and wisdom that speaks truth to the soul.
Can one seek that truth and remain a member of the LDS Church? If you ask Rock Waterman, Will Carter, Adrian Larsen, Denver Snuffer, and a number of other former members this question, they will tell you that the Church has told them that it is not possible.
All of the above have added something to my understanding and testimony of the Gospel. And yet they have been cast out from among us.
Christ warned us in the New Testament that it is not possible to serve two masters, "for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other" (Matt 6:24).
I want to give my allegiance, and my discipleship, to Christ, the Savior of the World. As I read my scriptures, prophets through the ages have always pointed to Him, begging us to repent and turn to him for our salvation.
If there are authorities in the Church that now demand that we serve them, or those above them in the chain of command, have they not set themselves up as a second set of masters?
At its best, is not such a a situation at least a distraction from the real work of following Christ and working out our salvation with fear and trembling before Him? I never recall the condition of fear and trembling before men being mentioned in the scriptures. At worst, trusting in the arm of flesh of even the best of men will damn us.
There have been some who have proclaimed that if you remain in the Church, you have showed your true choice to follow men instead of following Jesus. I have thought that such a pronouncement was very premature, but maybe it is not. Is this why I feel as if my soul is being torn asunder?
Still, I remain. I have faith that the Lord will show me the way, and I am unwilling to go charging off unwisely. I stay to testify of the greatness of Jesus, His gospel, and the scriptures.
Away with the correlated low-calorie diet, I delight in fatness, and so far as I can see, so does my class. Perhaps there is some hope for us yet.